I'm 46 years old, a CFO of a transnational corporation, also a single mon with two children. My ex-husband and I divorced three years ago for that I caught him cheating on me for several times.Since then, I kind of lost hope on marriage. I was devastated, so I begin to distract myself by trying something new. My friend introduced a software named CougarD. It's about finding young and handsome men for women like me. So I thought why don't I try something good since I've decided to do it. What will I lose?
I never ask for a real relationship. It's just for fun. So I met my boyfriend Myron with this attitude. He's 31 years old, very attractive and muscular for that he worked in a gym as a fitness coach. He's a man of my dream, which is also the reason I chose him. At first, I thought that kind of apps are all about younger men in search for rich women to satisfy their material desire. After all, that's what I thought of Myron at the first place. I never thought there are still men who actually have special preference for older women.
Myron and I started going out since last year. He's a gentle and thoughtful man with a healing smile. I gradually pasted over the harm caused by my ex-husband and deeply fall in love with him. Of course he's not as much rich as I. So I strictly refused when he offered to pay the meal. He never asked me for something he wants. But I'll willingly buy him nice and expensive gifts. In return, he also buys me something nice occasionally. It's been over a year since our first date. We both don't consider this relationship as a cougar hookup dating anymore. We know we love each other.
Last night, he booked a nice restaurant and took me to dinner. All of a sudden, he proposed. I never thought he would want a marriage with me. We both agreed to just enjoy each other's company.
I got scared, but I said "yes" for that I don't want him to be disappointed in public.
There are two reasons why I'm so hesitated. One is that I don't believe in marriage after my first one. Moreover, I find it's hard to trust him to be faithful in marriage especially with his pretty face and perfect body, while I'll lose my charming years later. I can't take for another hurt anymore. Second, I think he gradually gets used to use my money. He no longer offers to pay the meal and will used my money to pay it. One day, we went to shopping. He carried my bag for me, which is very considerate. I saw a beautiful purse with a not-so-expensive price and I knew he could afford it. So I thought he would buy it for me. But it really disappointed me that he naturally took out my wallet and used my credit card to pay for it. That's the minute he reminds me of sugar baby. Money is my last concern. I just thought even though I can afford everything I want, I still occasionally need to depend on him, no matter financially or mentally. That's when I don't think myself as a powerful businessman, but a woman that needs someone to rely on. But it seems not gonna happen if I marry him. But if I don't, I think it'll end our cougar dating relationship. I really don't want to lose him. What should I do?